Who knows truly why we overeat, why we allow an instantaneous impulse to stand in the way of all the progress we have made, all our hard work. All we can do is to do our best to stay vigilant.
I do not think that my occasional binge is going to stop once I lose all the weight - no matter what I do. I think compulsive/emotional eating is a problem I will live with for the rest of my life -- like alcoholism.
Hopefully now though, I have the tools to get me back on track immediately and realize that one mistake will not ruin everything unless I allow it to so so ...
We will conquer this!!!!!!!!!!!!!
p.s. Who knows? Maybe at some point I will consult a psychiatrist to help me learn about my destructive behaviours and to see whether I am coping with it properly. This is life and death for those of us with this much weight to lose.